it seemed as an informative article for me to know more about what is happening with Tomas right now, so here is a translation
sorry for mistakes and hope it's understandable enough!
I'm not a burnt-out wreck. I'll fight with the best ones, says figure skater Verner
What happened? In january 2008 Tomas Verner was the european champion in Zagreb. Two years later he finished 19th at the Olympic Games. Behind him, there is a season dark as the blackest night. He is fighting with his own body as well as with broken psychic. He is thinking where he made the mistakes. But he refuses to give up.
How to get out of the head those bad memories? Tomas Verner has planned a therapy of month-long cleaning head from figure skating. He's been in-line skating, playing squash and tennis, going to school. The World championships in Torino he barely watched, he refused commenting in studio for Czech TV. To the coaches he announced, that he doesn't want to start preparing for the new season yet. "First i want to order everything in my head." he says.
Easy question, but hard answer: What is going to be with you from now on?(thinking) I haven't decided yet. The only thing I can say for sure is that the next season is going to come. I'm not going to quit.
Have you even thought of retiring?No, I haven't. I just heard, that on the world championships the other skaters were asking, if I've quit for good. But I haven't gave up on myself. There is just the sadness and the grievance after the season in myself.
Would you like to delete it all from your memory so?
Or throw it behind my head. Somewhere inside, it'll not be easy to skate, if there stays something of this bad season, what will remind me of it. That's also the reason why I want to rebuild my programs and exchange them for brand new ones.
In the past you were able to admit your mistakes. Which ones did you make this year?A couple of bad decisions. After being sick, I left to competitions where i shouldn't have gone to: Grand Prix final and Czech nationals. I'm a competitor, I wanted to compete. I refused to admit, that I was not ready. Neither coaches managed to stop me from going there.
And then? The problems were wrapping around as a snowball? You went on being sick, the results were not coming, and that's also why your psychic went wrong?Exactly. Since I was a little boy, I've always longed for being exceptional in sport. 6th or 7th positions are not exceptional. They take away the drive. Moreover when I feel that I have the ability, that I'm not a burn-out wreck. This was killing me inside of my head.
Because you were thinking of your problems more than it's healthy?Already at the final of GP.There I jumped the best combination of 4T+3T in this season of all skaters in the world. It's written in the protocols, I got 15,8 points. They didn't give this much even to Plushenko this year. But then there came two mistakes and in the same moment i started to think: You're not good enough, you're not good as those guys.
And then you finished 19th at the Olympic Games. Did you really feel so bad?I felt absentminded, not sure with myself. Much more than usually I was looking at the others - what were they doing, how were they jumping. As if I hoped, that they wouldn't be prepared enough, and so I'd get my chance.
After coming back, you had coffee with Marian Jelinek, a coach of Pilsen hockey players, and you talked about psychology. What advice did he give you? He told me: If you were the type of person, who gets provoked to better performance when looking at the others, you can look. But if you are the type, who searches for what the others made wrong, you can't look. You have to focus on yourself only.
Inspite of this you gave up the World championships. Did you fight a lot inside yourself?During one of the training session I almost argued with my coaches. At that moment Michal Huth told me that it's very hard to work with me, when I'm ignoring him. I tried to explain that it's not like that, that I had only one thing on my mind: Go the the World championships yes or no? Should I try it? Can I do it? If I will not go to Torino, I'll seem as a coward. But if I will go and show the same as I did at Olympics, it will be a mess.
What made you to decide not to go?That I told myself: You were falling lower and lower during the whole season and you were always telling yourself that you are at the bottom and that you will bounce back from there. But what if I would have fallen even lower in Torino? I didn't need that. I've planned it this way: I'll get better somehow, I'll analyze the mistakes and then, when I am finally psychically prepared, I'll get back on the ice competing.
Have you reassured yourself during the World championships that you had made the right thing?For sure. I'm saying so although I barely saw anything of it on TV. I wanted to forget about figure skating for a while. But I'm still bit mad.
About what?That it's not fair. That I have been working for 3 years, wanting to achieve something and in the year, when I should have done so, I have nothing.
Figure skating is unfair.I know... I was out with a friend, a badminton player Petr Koukal. He was giving me courage. He told: Hey, don't think you are special, because of what happened to you. You are standing there in line with the others, who had fallen down and tried to come back. Now at least it's sure, that you have to change something.
What are you going to change?I'll try to make my preparation more effective. I used to travel a lot with my team. To Germany, to camps in Sweden, Finland. I want to concentrate on myself more now, not to care so much about the skaters around me. Since there is not Carolina Kostner anymore, it doesn't matter who is skating next to me anyway.
Do you miss her so much?Very. Since she left to the USA, the atmosphere has gone very low. We motivated each other. When I was down, she pulled me up, and the other way around.
You were always fighting with psychic. I'm gonna read you a quote from an interview we did 8 years ago. At that time you told me: Everybody says me, that I have to win the national championships. People mean it well, but it starts to make me think a lot, when I hear that I have to do something.That's me. In a psychological test of character that I did, I got a result that i absolutely hate the word HAVE TO and inside I'm fighting with it. On the contrary words as FUN and JOY, that's me. But the fun has gone away from my skating. There was to much of HAVE TO (MUST)
As far as you became european championship in Zagreb 2008, have you felt the pressure of getting another medal since that?Of course, people were counting on that. I also wanted to get a medal at the World championships and Olympic Games so much,
that i was telling myself: If I don't get it now, then when?
It's not so late, yet. Although at next Olympic Games in Sochi, you'll be 27 already.What is a high age for a figure skating, unless he skates in pairs competitions. For me Olympics are something amazing, I want to go to Sochi. But more important is going to be the next two years and my health conditions.
Have you found out what caused the series of illnesses this season?I have my veins destroyed from blood testing as some junkie,
but we are still searching for that. My only serious problem is lack of hemoglobin, I'm almost on the border of anemia, which can cause reduced immunity. But it's been like this since ever, since I was little and I was doing sports anyway. This is not going to make me stop. I want to fight for the medals with the best ones. And I can tell you that sometimes I even envy Michal Brezina.
What do you envy him?That it's going so easy for him. He skates two clean programs in an exterme and hard competiton and boom, he is up to the results list. This is what I'm searching for. Two clean programs in one competition. When i'll manage to find them, I'll be happy.
Hope he'll manage to get back into shape and will skate those two clean programs